Many things in between

Ideally, this blog should have been published around Dipawali but for no reason I delayed it. Maybe because there was no theme of this blog rather it was a mixture of many scattered thoughts, observations, and experiences. 

First among them is my experience at Sheroes Hangout. My niece asked me for a treat and we visited a hangout cafe named Sheroes hangout. The special thing about this place is that it is run, and managed by acid attack victims only. The place is entirely donation based. They do not charge you for food. It came as a big surprise for me. The food was raw and only the front staff was acid attack victims but the plight and sight of them touched my heart. I was happy to see them reconstruct their life after such horrific unjust committed to them by evil members of the society. It was inspiring. Sometimes, the instinct to survive makes you do many things.

Another such example of survival instinct was a person running with the Samosa tray in his one hand while trying to get inside a fast-moving train. Maybe the one-minute difference will help him in selling 4 more samosas. The desperate expression on his face made me realize how fortunate I am in my life and how silly I am to curse my luck or people around me.   

Another example was to see a person driving rickshaw on the eve of Dipawali to earn few extra coins when everyone around him is celebrating with their loved ones and family members. Sometimes it feels like everywhere there is so much sorrow. Everybody is running to achieve something or trying for wish-fulfillment. 

Sometimes when I see famous, rich, successful, influential and achiever people, I start comparing them with me, thinking about how do I fare vis-a-vis him. The ambitious me surge its head again and again. At times, I feel content but not happy. I do not know the trick. Getting rid of ambitions, expectations, and desires sound impossible and impractical. But when I see such people, I feel how rewarded I am. How lucky I am? Suddenly all my desires/ambition/expectations go away. I develop a sense of Niskaam Karma. In such a moment of insight, the only thing which seems to matter is to do my duty in a disciplined and consistent manner. A productive work-life will follow as a consequence.

Sometimes I wonder, why am I not able to do what I wish? Where am I wasting my time? Is it the laziness inside me or over-ambitious character of mine. I do not have answers. All I know is if you keep trying, things happen. Take everything as a duty and just do it. Maybe the desire of being productive is not so fulfilling in the end. So why to run behind it. Just live in the moment.